Tuesday, September 25, 2012

The Stand In


There is a 50% chance that you are a daughter.  If not, there is an even greater chance that you have a daughter, are married to a daughter, have a sister who is a daughter or if nothing else, you’ve had a mom who was a daughter.  By now you have, no doubt, figured out the topic for today.  Guys don’t make assumptions that this post will be a squishy, feely, chick thing.  This topic does affect you so you might want to give it a chance.

There are three girls in my life that are known as my daughters; one bio, one step and one grand.  I love them all whole heartedly and I hope someday to have an in-law and more grands, but I will try to be patient.  In addition to the daughters that I share my DNA or my last name with, there are some young girls that I consider to be my daughters, even if the state of Oklahoma or biology does not.  These girls bring me joy, pride, love and even the occasional heartache just like any daughters.  They were born daughters to others, but God has blessed me with the opportunity to help nurture and encourage them.  For this awesome gift, I am truly grateful.   However, the gift has come with a heartbreaking realization that not every daughter is cherished as she should be.  You see, I was brought into this world and raised by a mom who was fantastic at her job.  She was, and still is, loving, selfless and totally devoted to her children, three of which are daughters.  So it came as a complete shock to me that there are women who bring daughters into the world and then quit.  They don’t show love, they don’t cherish, they don’t mom.  This was completely incomprehensible to me.  Unfortunately our society has become somewhat accustomed to dads that aren’t there, but moms?  Uh, uh….NO….this isn’t supposed to happen.  Moms throw themselves in the path of danger to protect their babies, moms don’t eat so their kids can, moms wear thrift store clothes so their daughters can wear mall store clothes.  Which leads me to ask the question, “What kind of woman can walk away from her daughter”? 

Before you start thinking that I am being overly judgmental and must be utterly insensitive to the struggles of women, let me explain a few things.  I know that some women struggle with life to the point that it becomes too difficult for them to be who their daughters needs them to be.  When these women are true moms, they make the heart-wrenching, courageous decision to allow someone else to step in to be a temporary mom.  When these struggling women dig deep, and fight for the sake of their daughters, they will eventually overcome the struggles to be reunited with them, and rightfully so.  I have seen this story up close and I can tell you, it is a most precious thing.  These moms are true moms.

I’m most disturbed by the dead-beat moms, the women that give in to their struggles.  The women whose daughters ache to be a part of their lives, but there is just no room.  I have seen the pain in these daughter’s eyes.  I have held them on mother’s day when they cried.  They only want what every daughter wants.  They long to compare the lines of their hands with their mom’s hands, to learn their great-grandmother’s meatloaf recipe, to go shopping for their prom dress, to cry on her shoulder after their first broken heart.  Do these women even know what they are missing? It makes me so angry that I want to get right in their faces and scream, “what is wrong with you….you don’t deserve her”!  I apologize for the outburst, but how can you not feel the same way?

One of my favorite stories in the Bible is in Luke 8:43-48 when Jesus healed a woman that had been suffering and alone for twelve years.  She had faith that he would heal her and he did.  Afterwards, he said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well, go in peace”.  It was the only time in the bible that he addressed someone as daughter, so he must have known how special it was.   He knew that she was lonely and hurting and needed to feel like someone’s daughter.  He has a way of knowing these things.

There are some really great guys in this mix that have stepped up and taken on the role of mom and dad.  There are some awesome grandparents that parent.  Some extended families that have gone above and beyond.  Suffice it to say these girls are cared for by many and shrouded in love.  They are good girls that have hope in a future of happiness in spite of the pain they cope with.  They are brave in the face of adversity and yet I know them well enough to know that there is still an emptiness in their hearts that can’t be filled.  I will not stop trying to fill it.

 As I said, I’m grateful for the opportunity to be a stand in mom to some really special girls.  There are most likely times when they wish I wasn’t quite so motherly, but they know it comes from the heart.  I’m not the only woman that God has placed in their lives and I hope that they see his provision as a means to show his love for them.  As for the women that can’t seem to overcome their struggles and have disappointed their daughters, there is a large part of me that wants to punch them in the uterus followed by a round-house kick to the throat (that’s for the guys).  But the part of me that wants to love like Jesus does, knows that those women are also daughters.  They are broken and they may not be doing the mom thing right, but they are worthy to be loved like all daughters are.  Maybe, with the help of some stand-in moms, these girls will grow to be strong women and can teach their own moms how to love, and cherish them.  Hopefully, with God’s love as their guide, they will all know what it means to be called daughter. 

THAT’S IT!!!!  I love you girls!

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